Right now I echo the words of Paul
in 2 Timothy 4:6-7 "For I am now ready to be offered, and the time of my
departure is at hand. I have fought a good fight, I have finished my
course, I have kept the faith." We've come full circle everyone! I never
thought this day would come- the day I so longed for in the beginning,
but the day I've truly dreaded here in the end.
I have so many mixed and fast-flowing
emotions- this week has been a roller coaster for me. Bear with me as I
share what happened this last week, with transfers, and then I'll share
briefly (hopefully haha) some of what I've learned on my mission. (Oh
sidenote, I've been suuuuuuuper sick this past week with a head cold,
cough, and being a woman...so that's been fun lol)
Monday I was privileged to go to the
Statue of Liberty and Ellis Island with President and Sister Taggart and
the other 19 departing missionaries! It was a cold and rainy day, but
so fun. We took the ferry from NJ into Ellis Island and got to walk
around and look for a good hour at the museum. I've seen it a dozen
times already, but it was fun to see it one last time. Then we got back
on the ferry and it took us to Lady Liberty!!! She's huge! We went
through security again, and then boom, we were in the museum. There was
lots of cool stuff there and I wish I could have read more and looked at
more of it but we only had an hour until the ferry left because we were
on a tight schedule. As part of the ticket we got to climb the
pedestal. Ok. Seriously. That thing is so deceiving. It was a HIKE. Holy
moly my legs were about to give out. It was basically 100+ people
packed into a tiny stairwell going up 150+ stairs without stopping. Man,
my asthma kicked in and my legs just about had it- but the view from
her feet made it all worth it! You could see for miles in all
directions. I can't imagine what the view from the crown would be like!!
We climbed back down, got on the ferry, and then drove back to Newark
to have some Elm Street BBQ (love that place). Then the Taggart's gave
us lots of career, college, and adult life advice for when we get back.
It was so fun to have that time with them!
Tuesday we had my last zone meeting, and
if I had a quarter for every time someone made a dying joke...I would be
rich. Filthy rich. The jokes that day were unreal haha! But it was a
good meeting, and afterwards I had my Hot Seat. That's where the dying
missionaries sit up front and the whole zone gets to ask them questions
about their mission. We only did the spiritual half that day because we
ran out of time, so supposedly I'm doing the funny half today...we'll
see haha! I never wanted to do a hot seat anyway, so I'm not too bummed
if it doesn't happen.
Wednesday I got hugged by a man. So that
weirded me out and the guy was probably so confused because I was all
stiff and awkward about it....but in my defense I didn't see it coming,
and like, thats not ok haha! We were at the nursing home doing service,
and the activity director is a super cool guy, about 23. We'd always
talk with him while we're there, and apparently right before I got here
there was an elder who went home, and Tim was like "oh, I hugged him!
I'm a hugger." And then proceeds to come in like he's giving me one of
those bro handshakes, but then really just grabs my hand and pulls me
into a full on hug. I was so weird about it lol! My mind was just
like....NO! And it was just awkward. And I'm just awkward. And it was
just weird. Blech *shudders*
We also helped the Trunks that day with
some stuff she needed to get done. It was fun being with her kiddos and
being able to serve her!
Thursday we cleaned our apartment and I
packed up some of my stuff. Weird. Then we did weekly planning (my
last!) and headed off to our Bishop's house for dinner. Their family is
pretty quiet, but they're all so sweet. It was a fun evening with them!
We then went and had a super awkward lesson with our new investigator
Erica. She was completely distracted by her kids the whole time and
wouldn't say anything to us, so we were awkwardly fishing for
conversation and trying to discern her needs and interests. It was just
weird all around, I don't know how to describe it haha
Friday we had dinner and FHE with the
Trunks and that was super fun! Gosh I love this family. Another forever
friend right there! And we also were able to see the Teets family and
share one last lesson with them. I love that family. They have their
issues and things, but you'll never meet sweeter people.
Saturday we had coordination at 7am with Brother Stevenson, where I had my last waffle with him :( the
Stevenson's are awesome! And then we had a lesson with Lisa and she's
progressing!!!!! Dream come true!!! She's reading the BoM and praying
about it and loving it and all she's learning! She wants to come to
church with her daughters, and we brought Sister Trunk and they
connected super well, and I just love the Ciccia family! The story of
how we found her is a straight up miracle, and I feel so blessed seeing
the seed I helped plant grow. I know I was supposed to come to Sparta to
find her. And I'm so glad I did. God has blessed me immensely. I am for
sure flying back for their baptisms haha!
Saturday we also found out that we're
being doubled out of the area....we were so sure that S.Hall was
staying. So for the past couple days we've been maniacally packing,
cleaning, saying goodbye, and writing notes for the new sisters. S.Hall
is going to Harrison (part of Newark), back to the city where she
belongs haha! She was a fish out of water here in the boonies, but I'm
so glad she came. She taught me lots, and I'm glad we could be
companions for 2! No one else I'd rather have kill me haha :)
Sunday was also full of goodbyes. It was
fast Sunday so we both bore our testimonies, and literally every class
we went to and every meeting we had- they all mentioned how we were
leaving and how grateful they were for our dedication and service. I
seriously love this ward so much! They made me feel so welcome and
loved. I never felt inadequate or not good enough with them, they always
uplifted me and helped me feel at home! They are so wonderful. Lots of
tears were shed as we said goodbye to people. This ward truly became
home to me.
So, now for the tearjerker. Yikes haha!
This mission has been amazing for me. You all probably don't know this,
but I didn't exactly come out here for all the right reasons. Yes I
wanted to serve people, but I also didn't want to be a disappointment
and I felt that it was expected of me to go (not by you family, dont
worry about that haha!). So I came out, and I struggled the first couple
months. It never crossed my mind to go home, but I wasn't enjoying the
work. But I kept going, kept trying, kept crying and pleading with my
Father for the forgiveness and grace of my Savior. And guys, holy moly
is God good and amazing and such a loving Father! Over these 18.5 months
I've seen a change in my heart, my desires, my thoughts, my actions, my
words, my attitude, my testimony, my conversion, and my future. This
mission changed the trajectory of my life! I know for a fact I would
have fallen down a deep and dark road had I not come out here. And God
in His infinite wisdom and mercy, accepted me as a fledgling, selfish,
shy missionary who didn't know why they came out, and has molded me into
a person who loves God and loves people. I know where I would be if I
didn't come to NJ, and it is not a good place. And I know for a fact
that this will bless my life into the eternities, but that more
importantly it will bless my family and future family's lives forever. I
truly know that even when we only give, or can only give, 5 loaves and 2
fish to Christ- He makes it infinitely more. He takes our sacrifices,
however small, and reciprocates blessings an hundredfold. God loves us
all unconditionally, irrevocably, and eternally! And I am so grateful I
could give Him 18.5 months of my life, and I can't wait to give Him the
rest of it.
God is good all the time. And all the time, God is good.
I love you all. And I'll see you soon!
So for the last time,
Stay Jersey Strong.
Love, Sister McAllister
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